I hate this words-->Hoping

Assalammualaikum..Anyeonghaseyo..Salam 1 Malaysia...first of all mlm ni aku tido sorang2 dlm bilik..since my twin at my grandma's so i kenelh tido sorang..feeling?best+takot?haha..nak takot ap ek?aku kene biasekn tido sorang2..klux nnt smpi ke tua takot nak tido sorang..secondly aku nak ckp yg aku jeles  sgt dgn girl yg mempunyai semua yg dye mahukn..even dye xpyh mnx pon dye dpt..aku tau aku xptot ckp bnde camni..but seriously aku jeles..knplh aku xdpt merasa kehidupan yg mcm tu?wae?wae?wae?tu je soalan yg aku tnye sejak akhir2 ni..tpi keadaan selalu dpt mempositifkn aku ni..i should feel so thankful wif i've got now..i can't ask more than this cuz aku x mmpu..Allah bagi kita sesuatu kesenangan dan kesusahan mengikut kemampuan kita right??so i guess ni jelah yg aku mmpu..now i wanna ask something..is it fun when we know that we gonna die soon?i mean kita tahu jangka hayat kita ni?tdi aku tngok drama korea ni..the main actress have cancer..and she only got 6 months to live..i feel so bad for her..tpi dye boleh buat ap je yg dye nak..dye boleh brcuti,boleh pki baju mhl2..boleh bls dndm kat org yg prnh buat jahat kat dye and etc..dye boleh buat sume bnde dan dye boleh dpt bnde yg dye nak..wah!!indahnye hidup mcm tu..xpyh fikir ap yg org len rase dan kata..sbb lps ni kita dh nak mati..best ke idop mcm tu?rasenye cam best tpi aku rase msti terseksa..mstilh terseksa sbb dye thu bile dye akn mati..mcm mana klu dye xboleh penuhi semua permintaan dye?msti rase nak hidup lebih lame kn?hmm...i'm thinking what it feel like..while i'm thinking about it lets get to the point..HOPING..i hate that word..cuz of what?cuz of everything..why i'm still hoping at him while i know that he never see me or look at me?he never ever see me..EVER!!cuz his heart is belong someone else..why this thing happen to me?well aku tngok ombak rindu ad satu ayat yg buat aku ingt smpi skrg:'WE AS A WOMAN WILL NEVER STOP HOPING'aku agree sgt2 ngan ayat tu..tpi harus perempuan?knp xlelaki yg brHARAP?well one more time keadaan mempositifkn aku..maybe that boy does not deserved me or i'm not deserved him?maybe aku deserve yg lebih baik drpd dye..aku xckp yg dye tu jht i'm just saying that dye bkan jodoh aku..sng cite..btolkn?dh xde jodoh nak wat came right?kite kene accept QADA' dan QADAR ALLAH..mulai hari ni kite kene terima semua ketentuan yg diberikan-NYA..well maybe i'm hypocrite cuz always ask people to accept what ever is happening cuz i cant accept the fact..but as a human being xslhkn untuk saling mengingati?i guess i've to pen off right now cuz my eyes so heavy...haha..it means now is bed time..hope to see you again my ONLINE DIARY..<3..xoxoxoxo..MMUAH..

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Assalammualaikum..Anyeonghaseyo..Salam 1 Malaysia...dh mlm2 ni aku xtau nak buat ap..dsbbkn dh lame x update so aku updatelh..ala bkan ad yg kisah pon aku update ke x..aku mati barulh ad org kisah kot..so untuk kesekian lamanya aku dtglh jenguk2 blog aku ni..same je nothing changed..follower pon ttp same..biaselh dax cam aku xpndi nak susun ayat buat karangan pnjg2..
boleh ak tnye 1 soalan x?camne nak hilangkn rase bosan kat dax laki?aku tau ak tnye soalan ni xkn ad yg akn jwb..sbb tu aku berani tnye..ad satu boys ni mc8 aku..dh mc8 lama2 terasa cam nak kapel pulak..then bile kapel hari2 mc8 aku rasa bosan pulak..ak pon xfhm ngan diri aku..knp aku prlu rasa bosan padahal dye xdelh kongkong mcm pakwe orglen..dye call aku pon xprnh..misscall tu adlh..so smpi skrg aku blom ag mc8 ngan dye..aku tngh jwpn ntok soalan aku ni..should i go on wif this relationship or not?tpi ak xnak sakitkn hati dye..i need a doctor here..aku butuhkn seorg doktor cinta...sape ye?anyone from you guys?msti xdekn?kwn2 aku confirm xprnh nak usha blog aku ni..so diorg xkan prnh thu ap yg aku buat atau fikirkn..klu ad sesapa yg ad jwpn please tell me..

2NE1-Ugly(translation)

[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but

I don’t like it

I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

Oh oh oh oh x 2

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but

No one is listening

I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

Oh oh oh oh x 2

[DARA] Why am I this ugly

What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect

I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now

I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape

This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily

My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you

The cold facade inside that patronizing gaze suffocates me

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern

I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out

This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone

I’m all alone x 2

There is no such thing as warmth

There is no one by my side

All alone

I’m all alone x 2

I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth

Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

[CL] I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety

Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly